Things We Forget

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One way I have grown this year is that I have become more confident in my own decision making. This confidence was made possible by ketamine therapy. Ketamine therapy enabled me to control my compulsion to drink massive amounts of alcohol whenever the opportunity presented itself. I demonstrated this in such a powerful way that a bar that had denied serving me alcohol in the past started serving me again last night.

When my favorite bartender asked me, “Do you want another one?” after I had finished my first beer slow, I was floored. I had no idea this was even a possibility. I had been drinking very small sips between long periods of time in between because I no longer possessed the compulsion to fuck myself up as fast as possible anymore. I had a great conversation with Steve, and I even managed to get a ride home from him instead of paying for my own ride.