I was a very sheltered child. My first crush existed in my imagination. This event occurred when I was in fourth grade, when I still lived in Green Bay.
I remember laying in bed in fourth grade and first fantasizing about having sex. I was a very sheltered child, I was unsure about how it would go at that point. I had heard of people being raped, though. So, I literally fantasized about being “raped”. I imagined a man breaking into my bedroom and then forcing me to have sex with him. I guess what I fantasized about was submissive role-playing. However, I did not have the vocabulary to express this at the time.
From this, I learned that I had complete control over my own imagination. This was a powerful lesson, and it led me to achieve great things later on.
Things We Forget 
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