Growth

Now, when I cough after I smoke, I feel like I am playing the victim. I was (and still am) so eager to get high I didn’t figure out how to exhale properly until I was well into my twenties. Is this an excuse?

Yes, it is. I’m using something I am in direct control of as a reason to justify my behavior.

My coughing bothered my roommate/landlord so much that she attached panels to both sides of my door to block the noise. This was due to lack of awareness on my part. I try to be aware of my breath, but sometimes I slip.