How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals?

To others? Almost never. To myself? Very often.

I have impulsive thoughts, some of which would derail my life in an instant. Since college, I have become a lot better at allowing my impulsive ideas to exist without acting on them. This is a result of therapy and maturity.

I lived at a residential therapy location in the forest for five weeks after I graduated from college. There, I learned a host of coping skills and techniques to help me better deal with my emotions. I was also put on abilify, which aided me in controlling my impulsive thoughts immensely. I was progressing appropriately for five weeks when I snapped one day and swore at staff. This was a very strict facility, and this combined several other outbursts caused me to be kicked out before I had “graduated”. This was okay, though, because I had already learned the skills and techniques and was on the medication needed to control my impulsive speech. They also let me keep literature they had given me, and these proved to be very helpful in the coming years.