I can do it. I can do it. I am capable and willing to succeed at any endeavor I undertake. Why do I spend some days just sitting at home getting high?
I am a stimulation seeker. This was not really a problem until I started driving. I speed to alleviate my cravings. When this didn’t go so well, I started drinking and using drugs instead to get my fix. In college, I actually engineered my life so that I was high all the time. This practice continued until the present day. I am now in my later twenties and have sustained this practice. Now, when I am in the office, and throughout the day, my consciousness is augmented by 30mg of Adderall XR. When I’m not at work, my consciousness is further augmented by delta 8, which is just a little THC.
When I party, everything (except heroin and meth) is valid for me to catch my high, including alcohol and cocaine. I try not to drink too much alcohol, though, because of an addiction which has consumed my life in the past. I just found a guy who says he has acid who I feel like I can trust. Acid works to lessen my addictive personality, and I eventually want to be in a situation where I micro dose regularly.
How will this path affect me? As long as I am autonomous and catious with the amount of drugs I use, it should not be a problem. Wish me luck!
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